After two and a half weeks of the SAHM gig, I’m having mixed feelings.
And, I should be savoring it because this SAHM thing is only temporary. I’ve only got 6 weeks and a day left until I have to go back to teaching.
I love that I get to stay at home with my girls. I really do. I get to see and hear all of the fun things they are doing. For instance, #2 started talking yesterday (“baba” and “dada”) and #1 said “I have an idea.” I would never hear that if they were in daycare and I got home at 5pm.
And, remember, I am a working mom just having a summer break, so I totally know what it’s like. I get home at 5pm, cook dinner with two fussy kids that just want attention, bathe them, get them to bed and start all over again the next morning.
At the same time, poor #1 is totally bored with me. We’ve done fun things (park, walk, play date, library, store, kiddy pool, etc), but she really wants interaction with more kids. She wants to play. She needs more structure. And, she is killing me wanting to watch tv.
But, in addition to wanting to stay home with my girls, I really feel like I need a little time off. Not just a couple hours at Bible Study, but an entire day, heck even a morning, to do what I want. I just need a break. I can totally see how mother’s morning out or other programs are such a success.
I don’t know if I have this SAHM gig down. Do you other SAHM have lots of breaks. An hour here, an hour there? Do you hire a sitter during the day just to get out? Maybe that’s where I’m going wrong.
Any suggestions or help would be appreciated. And, don’t think that I don’t appreciate my kids and that I don’t love them. Because I do! Very much so, but I think we just need a little break from each other.